Is there such a thing as loving too much?

..coz if there is, that's what I'm feeling. You know the feeling when you love someone too much.. it hurts? Not because they don't love you back but.. See, I'm apart with the person I love right now, we're miles apart. The distance makes it hard for me to feel. And I desperately wanna feel. :( I wanna feel him there..I know he is.. I just.. I don't know.. seeking for more. I know I shouldn't be demanding. I don't even know if I have earned the right to it. But. Argh. Enough. I am happy because he loves me. I just..wanna fast forward to that 39 days.

As Always..

I stumbled through a friend's tumblr site and saw this love letter written in Martin Nievera's new CD.

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM FEELING, AND WHAT I WOULD WANT HIM TO KNOW...

Back in My New-Old World

I just arrived at HK a few hours ago.

It sucks to leave a place where you're gonna be leaving a lot of people.

Goddammit. I just wanna say that I really really miss you. :(

Please, hold on with me..

Valentines Day

Celebrating Valentine's Day after 2 years of not celebrating it is... GREAT!

I am so happy that even though I'm miles apart, he made me feel appreciated, and loved. I appreciate all the effort he has given into whatever this is. I love him. That's what I am sure of, nothing else. No one else will come close.

P.S. The movie, Valentine's Day, is very nice! Go watch it :)

One of those nonesense moments

I do not know what to write. I have a lot on my mind. But I want to write at this particular moment. Maybe I can just write random words of even phrases..then from there, maybe I can figure out things that are worth sharing.

love.losing.fear.hope.faith.lack of belief.fighting to hold on.happy ever after.nonacceptance.scary.late nights.concert.Philippines.magic 8-ball.valentines.gimmick.someone showing interest but hopefully not.clingy.effort.effort.effort.a for effort.worth it or not.LOVE.did I say love?church.acceptance.family.mom.missing people.missing mom but kind of hating her as well.change.spiritually.emotionally.not to judge people.present and future.irrelevant bad past.one step at a time.LOVE.

LOVE. Here is everything I have ever asked for. Distance, that's the only thing. But for people who truly love each other, there's gonna be no problem. It's all about trust. and faith. FAITH. I have it, but does he? I know, somewhere deep in his heart, he does. Him even taking this big step of trying to make it work, even though he doesn't promise anything, the fact that he's still there texting me everyday, talking to me everyday, that's more of what I would've asked for, it's a big thing already. I know and I understand that I shouldn't make him do what I want him to do, or else I'll just be the same as any other girl around. But I'm not any other girl, I am THE GIRL. It's hard not to be on the same boat about some things, but this is where COMPROMISE comes in. If you love the person we should be willing to compromise. Wait for the right time and moment. I believe everything will fall into place soon. In God's perfect time. Okay I think I'm talking nonsense. Next time I'll talk about all the other random words I have typed above.

I just watched Enchanted and I loved it. This is the song that got stuck in my head.

How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really really truly love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really really truly love her?

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her or she'll be inclined to say
"How do I know he loves me?
How do I know he's mine?"

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is Grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you a little bit every day
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love

You got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each little something to lead her to believe you love her

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true
How do you know he loves you?
How do you know he's yours?

Well does he take you out dancing just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words meant just for you?
He'll find someway to tell you with the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love
He's your love

That's how you know he loves you
That's how you know it's true

Because he'll wear your favorite color just so he can match your eyes
Plan a private picnic by the fire's glow
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
That's how you know he's your love

Of Course.. I can do that.

I haven't been updating my blogs because I was avoiding gossip. Or whatever. So, I changed my URL now.

9 days. Excited about it. This is the real test of love, of whether it'll remain, of whether it would last. I hope it will. I BELIEVE. I'm not sure if it's only me who believes but, yeah i will believe. because I have this feeling so strong that we can make it til the end.

10 days. How will they react. Someone I've know from the past, and now is gonna be part of my future. Will they accept? I have fears. But again, I am hopeful. I hope they're open-- to my happiness, to my (old but) new found love, to my future.

12 days. I hope everything will turn out the way it was planned.. and at the end of the night, he get's blessed.

13 days. Will I be ready? To take on another countdown. Will HE be ready? Will we still be as in love as we are? Will love grow even deeper?

I Can't Fight It

Sudden brushing of arms..knees..fingers..

Warm smiles...

Moments of sweetness..

Subtle lines..


ARGH! OH gosh. Suddenly it felt good to like someone again. :)