It's 12:45 PM already and I'm still awake, talking to my best friends. Things are happening over there, on their lives that I really wish I was physically there to be with them. I miss them. I miss my THREE best friends.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Random # 2
It's 12:45 PM already and I'm still awake, talking to my best friends. Things are happening over there, on their lives that I really wish I was physically there to be with them. I miss them. I miss my THREE best friends.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Random
I just have to write something because i know it's been a REALLY LONG TIME since i last wrote/posted here. Anyway, I just got back from Manila the other day for a Christmas album launch our church produced, which I am part of. It was a really short vacation-- 4 days, but i got to see most of the people I wanted to see, church friends, college close friends, and Innersoul barkada... and most especially-- FAMILY. It really sucks that even if it's just for a short while of being there, I got attached to everything, all over again, just when I knew I have already adjusted to the life in Hong Kong, that it is a fun, convenient, and free place.. Not that I'm saying that now that I'm back I don't think this way anymore, no, it's just that, I have come to experience my "former" life at home and I miss it. I LOVE WORK, but I also want to spend time chilling with the people I love.
I guess I'll always be crying whenever I visit the Philippines, when I'm on my way to the airport departure gates. :|
HK Disney performers had a gurreeeat party last night, ala ASAP 09 they say. I totally enjoyed it. I believe I'm coming back again to the adjusted me, soon.. until I get back to Manila again.
I guess I'll always be crying whenever I visit the Philippines, when I'm on my way to the airport departure gates. :|
HK Disney performers had a gurreeeat party last night, ala ASAP 09 they say. I totally enjoyed it. I believe I'm coming back again to the adjusted me, soon.. until I get back to Manila again.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Ohh Baby Baby!
These days, aside from work I've been following series like Glee, Gossip Girl and Grey's Anatomy.
Uhhmm... I don't really have a point, do I? I don't really have a particular topic on mind do I? Hahahaha. Sorry, I'm just not in the mood. Something makes me feel this way. Like... Pissed off, you know?
Uhhmm... I don't really have a point, do I? I don't really have a particular topic on mind do I? Hahahaha. Sorry, I'm just not in the mood. Something makes me feel this way. Like... Pissed off, you know?
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
One Month.
It's been over a month since I've been here in Hong Kong and I haven't been updating this site for quite some time already. I have been busy. with my new work and my new life.. and I have to say, I'm lovin' it.
Freedom, I think, is the very thing that I've wanted ever since I felt I wanted to be independent already; and I'm getting it now-- late nights, sleepovers, and all those other stuff.. But I have to say I'm becoming a more responsible person as I ever was before. I believe I'm on my way to personal growth, given the drastic change in my life. And I can say I am so much looking forward to that.
A few things I have realized in the course of this transition:
1) Communication is key . And I'm not saying this in a boyfriend-girlfriend setting (although I know it should also be the key) because I don't have a boyfriend, but in a family setting. I now value communication with my parents, compared to who I am back in the Philippines, all eyes on the computer caring about nothing in this world... Now, I am all eyes on the computer, mostly because I do get to talk to them given the technology today, and it's just so refreshing to talk to familiar people after a long day of work with newly found friends (or just people at work). Same goes to my ever beloved friends who are still in contact with me =)
2) Another love can help you get a move on from the past. Okay, maybe most people would say no, and that's what I've been hearing in the past whatever years, but now, I actually met a person who believes in this the same way that I do; so now I know I'm not making this up.. So now I know, a new love would help me completely get through with all the things I've been dealing with; things and moments and memories that has been going on through my mind at random days; things I want to forget but I can't..
I kinda hate this feeling of feeling hatred and love at the same time. I kinda hate the fact that I want to see you but then I don't because all the hurtful things that you said will be brought back.. and I think I've suffered enough that I don't want it to happen again. All I wanted was for us to be friends again. I never did anything destructive to you, to your relationship, to whatever. It was just a brief moment of time (for you), a moment of thrill and excitement, so I still can't explain or justify why the hell did this get to you that much... So much that after you've already hurt me, you still had to hurt me all over again by the things that you've said. I hate it that I'm having a hard time moving on... Because it was just a month or so, but for me it felt so real and so genuine.. When it was the opposite for you.
Freedom, I think, is the very thing that I've wanted ever since I felt I wanted to be independent already; and I'm getting it now-- late nights, sleepovers, and all those other stuff.. But I have to say I'm becoming a more responsible person as I ever was before. I believe I'm on my way to personal growth, given the drastic change in my life. And I can say I am so much looking forward to that.
A few things I have realized in the course of this transition:
1) Communication is key . And I'm not saying this in a boyfriend-girlfriend setting (although I know it should also be the key) because I don't have a boyfriend, but in a family setting. I now value communication with my parents, compared to who I am back in the Philippines, all eyes on the computer caring about nothing in this world... Now, I am all eyes on the computer, mostly because I do get to talk to them given the technology today, and it's just so refreshing to talk to familiar people after a long day of work with newly found friends (or just people at work). Same goes to my ever beloved friends who are still in contact with me =)
2) Another love can help you get a move on from the past. Okay, maybe most people would say no, and that's what I've been hearing in the past whatever years, but now, I actually met a person who believes in this the same way that I do; so now I know I'm not making this up.. So now I know, a new love would help me completely get through with all the things I've been dealing with; things and moments and memories that has been going on through my mind at random days; things I want to forget but I can't..
I kinda hate this feeling of feeling hatred and love at the same time. I kinda hate the fact that I want to see you but then I don't because all the hurtful things that you said will be brought back.. and I think I've suffered enough that I don't want it to happen again. All I wanted was for us to be friends again. I never did anything destructive to you, to your relationship, to whatever. It was just a brief moment of time (for you), a moment of thrill and excitement, so I still can't explain or justify why the hell did this get to you that much... So much that after you've already hurt me, you still had to hurt me all over again by the things that you've said. I hate it that I'm having a hard time moving on... Because it was just a month or so, but for me it felt so real and so genuine.. When it was the opposite for you.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Farewell For Now
Suddenly after reading a friend's letter for me, it dawned (YES GAMIT KO DIN TERM MO JILL :)) ) to me that I really am gonna be leaving soon. I don't know if people think this is shallow, I mean, it's gonna be for a year only and, it's only in Hong Kong... But you don't understand. I've never been away from my family and friends for a long time. The longest time I've been away was... 12 days I think when I went to China, and that was, 3 years ago? Anyway, now I'm crying my heart out, and I just want to take this opportunity (me bring so emotional) to write messages for people. WALANG AANGAL DITO AH, MOMENT KO ITO: (In no particular order)
JILL: I HAAAAATE YOUUUU. You made me cry I so hate you! JOKE. Hahahaha gusto ko pantayan yung mga sinabi mo sa letter pero uulitin ko lang din yung sinabi mo dun. Basta, okay fine one year. DON'T YOU QUIT OKAY, ON EVERYTHING (you know what I mean). It'll be great, just wait (yesssss it rhymes!). You don't know how much I am thankful to God that we have this friendship (tingnan mo inuulit ko lang sinabi mo haha), because... because of so many things. You know that I'm happy to have you as a friend kahit na "you're mocking me" hahahaha. Basta yuuuun. You'll visit me ok! I love you powzzzzzz! P.S. I am blessed to have an anointed worship leader friend like you. NAKSSSSSS =)) =)) =))
CELINE: HAYYYYY! I know it sucks that I'll be leaving the day after your birthday and I won't be seeing you even on the day of your birthday AND we'll be meeting on Friday on a restricted schedule (because you only have an hour and a half lunch break and I can only stay for an hour sorry!). Pero amongst everyone (except my church friends) ikaw ang pinaka madalas ko nakikita eh kaya I guess okay lang. Pero I will miss you, you know that, like I've said before our friendship was i think composed of about 80% of us being physically together, nagbago lang yun after we graduated and we kinda had to adjust to it. :)) Ah basta basta this is another test of friendship and I know we'll make it. :) yess magjowa nga talaga tayo!! I love you boyfriend!!! Oy yung deal natin ha, dapat bago ako bumalik meron ka ng..... alam mo na ;) ** KOR: HOY! I AM WATCHING YOU! (You know what I mean) :D ** MAMAS AND PAPAS: I love you po! hehehe! thank you po sa bawat paghatid at pagpapalamon sakin. Puntahan nyo ko ako sa Hong Kong magttreat ako! HAHAHA!
DEZ: We barely saw each other na and that's sad but like we've said, sanay tayo sa ganito. I know, even though we don't get to talk a lot, that we still have each other's back. You are my UGLY TRUTH. Thank you for giving me advice that's harsh but at the same time, true. You know me very well and I love that about you, it seems like I don't have to tell you if I'm sad or whatever, you just know. And you know the right words to say MOST OF THE TIME. :)) I admire you and I know you're gonna go far. Keep you head held high, someone's bound to come in the right time :) And ngayon pa lang I congratulate you na. I believe in you. :D
EDAH AND CLAR: PANGET KAYO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I love you and I will miss you! :) Edah I'm proud of you, you'll be working na! Sabay tayo ng first day! Clar! mAghanap ka na, anu ka magiging housewife ni Popoy?! HAHAHAHA! No, seriously, we've been through a lot, and you may think I am crazy most of the time but, hahaha I can do this na. :) Keep in touch okaaaaay?
PASTOR ERIC, ATE CY AND NASH: HEHEHEHE. Thank you po for everything, from the very start, for believing in me on my very first Sunday as a part of the Worship Team you let me sing a Special number. It meant a lot. I just want you to know that I look up to you as an inspiration in leading and serving the Lord ayuuuun. Thanks for always being there for me :D I WILL BE BACK! PROMISE! :))
PASTOR REY AND PASTORA JOYCE: WEEEEE. Hehehehe :) Thank you po for being my mom's friend and everything. I super duper love your family to bits! :) I know God will guide you whatever path you may take. :D
NEW LIFE MUSIC TEAM AND REVEALED: Thank you for being a part of my life in New Life. I regret that I only joined this team this year, but I am blessed to have met all of you. I will see you soon! :D
INNERSOUL (New and Old): I will miss you! Visit me I know you can! =)
CAO FRIENDS: YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! thanks for the messages in YM and text asking me about my flight and whatever else! Mara, Kat, Mario, Berba (yan kasi yung mga ngttext at ng Ym sakin so walang magtatampo haha) I love you all! :D
JILL: I HAAAAATE YOUUUU. You made me cry I so hate you! JOKE. Hahahaha gusto ko pantayan yung mga sinabi mo sa letter pero uulitin ko lang din yung sinabi mo dun. Basta, okay fine one year. DON'T YOU QUIT OKAY, ON EVERYTHING (you know what I mean). It'll be great, just wait (yesssss it rhymes!). You don't know how much I am thankful to God that we have this friendship (tingnan mo inuulit ko lang sinabi mo haha), because... because of so many things. You know that I'm happy to have you as a friend kahit na "you're mocking me" hahahaha. Basta yuuuun. You'll visit me ok! I love you powzzzzzz! P.S. I am blessed to have an anointed worship leader friend like you. NAKSSSSSS =)) =)) =))
CELINE: HAYYYYY! I know it sucks that I'll be leaving the day after your birthday and I won't be seeing you even on the day of your birthday AND we'll be meeting on Friday on a restricted schedule (because you only have an hour and a half lunch break and I can only stay for an hour sorry!). Pero amongst everyone (except my church friends) ikaw ang pinaka madalas ko nakikita eh kaya I guess okay lang. Pero I will miss you, you know that, like I've said before our friendship was i think composed of about 80% of us being physically together, nagbago lang yun after we graduated and we kinda had to adjust to it. :)) Ah basta basta this is another test of friendship and I know we'll make it. :) yess magjowa nga talaga tayo!! I love you boyfriend!!! Oy yung deal natin ha, dapat bago ako bumalik meron ka ng..... alam mo na ;) ** KOR: HOY! I AM WATCHING YOU! (You know what I mean) :D ** MAMAS AND PAPAS: I love you po! hehehe! thank you po sa bawat paghatid at pagpapalamon sakin. Puntahan nyo ko ako sa Hong Kong magttreat ako! HAHAHA!
DEZ: We barely saw each other na and that's sad but like we've said, sanay tayo sa ganito. I know, even though we don't get to talk a lot, that we still have each other's back. You are my UGLY TRUTH. Thank you for giving me advice that's harsh but at the same time, true. You know me very well and I love that about you, it seems like I don't have to tell you if I'm sad or whatever, you just know. And you know the right words to say MOST OF THE TIME. :)) I admire you and I know you're gonna go far. Keep you head held high, someone's bound to come in the right time :) And ngayon pa lang I congratulate you na. I believe in you. :D
EDAH AND CLAR: PANGET KAYO. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I love you and I will miss you! :) Edah I'm proud of you, you'll be working na! Sabay tayo ng first day! Clar! mAghanap ka na, anu ka magiging housewife ni Popoy?! HAHAHAHA! No, seriously, we've been through a lot, and you may think I am crazy most of the time but, hahaha I can do this na. :) Keep in touch okaaaaay?
PASTOR ERIC, ATE CY AND NASH: HEHEHEHE. Thank you po for everything, from the very start, for believing in me on my very first Sunday as a part of the Worship Team you let me sing a Special number. It meant a lot. I just want you to know that I look up to you as an inspiration in leading and serving the Lord ayuuuun. Thanks for always being there for me :D I WILL BE BACK! PROMISE! :))
PASTOR REY AND PASTORA JOYCE: WEEEEE. Hehehehe :) Thank you po for being my mom's friend and everything. I super duper love your family to bits! :) I know God will guide you whatever path you may take. :D
NEW LIFE MUSIC TEAM AND REVEALED: Thank you for being a part of my life in New Life. I regret that I only joined this team this year, but I am blessed to have met all of you. I will see you soon! :D
INNERSOUL (New and Old): I will miss you! Visit me I know you can! =)
CAO FRIENDS: YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! thanks for the messages in YM and text asking me about my flight and whatever else! Mara, Kat, Mario, Berba (yan kasi yung mga ngttext at ng Ym sakin so walang magtatampo haha) I love you all! :D
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Supposedly Dated August 30
Now I understand to hold you I must open up me hands and watch you rise...
I was listening to my iPod when the song Butterfly by Mariah Carey was played. These words above are the ones that were stuck in my mind. I don't know why...
But I will stand and say goodbye, for you'll never be mine...
I guess I need proper closure. I don't wanna get stuck with this mess for a long time especially now that everyone's practically moving on with their lives... I just need a fresh start please. :(
I typed this on my iPod almost a month ago... Now, nomehow, I'm slowly picking up the pieces and trying to get on with life. I'm really bad at this part of my love life (or should I say lost love life? HAHAHAHA!)
I was listening to my iPod when the song Butterfly by Mariah Carey was played. These words above are the ones that were stuck in my mind. I don't know why...
But I will stand and say goodbye, for you'll never be mine...
I guess I need proper closure. I don't wanna get stuck with this mess for a long time especially now that everyone's practically moving on with their lives... I just need a fresh start please. :(
I typed this on my iPod almost a month ago... Now, nomehow, I'm slowly picking up the pieces and trying to get on with life. I'm really bad at this part of my love life (or should I say lost love life? HAHAHAHA!)
Counting The Days..
As the days draw near, I feel... I don't actually know what I'm feeling. I've been counting the remaining Sundays I'll be able to sing... Counting the Wednesdays I'll be able to sing and attend the Revealed Service.. Counting the days that I could spend with my family watching Grey's Anatomy (yeah, I've persuaded my mom and dad to watch and they're liking it) and eating and laughing (yeah we don't fight as much right now thank God)... Counting the days I could spend with my friends...
I actually am looking forward to stating anew. Meeting new friends. Forgetting what needs to be forgotten. Leaving what needs to be left behind. But on the other hand, I don't want to forget something that have taught me something. Wounded me but made me stronger. Pushed me to my limits. Set my boundaries.
I actually am looking forward to stating anew. Meeting new friends. Forgetting what needs to be forgotten. Leaving what needs to be left behind. But on the other hand, I don't want to forget something that have taught me something. Wounded me but made me stronger. Pushed me to my limits. Set my boundaries.
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