These days, aside from work I've been following series like Glee, Gossip Girl and Grey's Anatomy.
Uhhmm... I don't really have a point, do I? I don't really have a particular topic on mind do I? Hahahaha. Sorry, I'm just not in the mood. Something makes me feel this way. Like... Pissed off, you know?
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
One Month.
It's been over a month since I've been here in Hong Kong and I haven't been updating this site for quite some time already. I have been busy. with my new work and my new life.. and I have to say, I'm lovin' it.
Freedom, I think, is the very thing that I've wanted ever since I felt I wanted to be independent already; and I'm getting it now-- late nights, sleepovers, and all those other stuff.. But I have to say I'm becoming a more responsible person as I ever was before. I believe I'm on my way to personal growth, given the drastic change in my life. And I can say I am so much looking forward to that.
A few things I have realized in the course of this transition:
1) Communication is key . And I'm not saying this in a boyfriend-girlfriend setting (although I know it should also be the key) because I don't have a boyfriend, but in a family setting. I now value communication with my parents, compared to who I am back in the Philippines, all eyes on the computer caring about nothing in this world... Now, I am all eyes on the computer, mostly because I do get to talk to them given the technology today, and it's just so refreshing to talk to familiar people after a long day of work with newly found friends (or just people at work). Same goes to my ever beloved friends who are still in contact with me =)
2) Another love can help you get a move on from the past. Okay, maybe most people would say no, and that's what I've been hearing in the past whatever years, but now, I actually met a person who believes in this the same way that I do; so now I know I'm not making this up.. So now I know, a new love would help me completely get through with all the things I've been dealing with; things and moments and memories that has been going on through my mind at random days; things I want to forget but I can't..
I kinda hate this feeling of feeling hatred and love at the same time. I kinda hate the fact that I want to see you but then I don't because all the hurtful things that you said will be brought back.. and I think I've suffered enough that I don't want it to happen again. All I wanted was for us to be friends again. I never did anything destructive to you, to your relationship, to whatever. It was just a brief moment of time (for you), a moment of thrill and excitement, so I still can't explain or justify why the hell did this get to you that much... So much that after you've already hurt me, you still had to hurt me all over again by the things that you've said. I hate it that I'm having a hard time moving on... Because it was just a month or so, but for me it felt so real and so genuine.. When it was the opposite for you.
Freedom, I think, is the very thing that I've wanted ever since I felt I wanted to be independent already; and I'm getting it now-- late nights, sleepovers, and all those other stuff.. But I have to say I'm becoming a more responsible person as I ever was before. I believe I'm on my way to personal growth, given the drastic change in my life. And I can say I am so much looking forward to that.
A few things I have realized in the course of this transition:
1) Communication is key . And I'm not saying this in a boyfriend-girlfriend setting (although I know it should also be the key) because I don't have a boyfriend, but in a family setting. I now value communication with my parents, compared to who I am back in the Philippines, all eyes on the computer caring about nothing in this world... Now, I am all eyes on the computer, mostly because I do get to talk to them given the technology today, and it's just so refreshing to talk to familiar people after a long day of work with newly found friends (or just people at work). Same goes to my ever beloved friends who are still in contact with me =)
2) Another love can help you get a move on from the past. Okay, maybe most people would say no, and that's what I've been hearing in the past whatever years, but now, I actually met a person who believes in this the same way that I do; so now I know I'm not making this up.. So now I know, a new love would help me completely get through with all the things I've been dealing with; things and moments and memories that has been going on through my mind at random days; things I want to forget but I can't..
I kinda hate this feeling of feeling hatred and love at the same time. I kinda hate the fact that I want to see you but then I don't because all the hurtful things that you said will be brought back.. and I think I've suffered enough that I don't want it to happen again. All I wanted was for us to be friends again. I never did anything destructive to you, to your relationship, to whatever. It was just a brief moment of time (for you), a moment of thrill and excitement, so I still can't explain or justify why the hell did this get to you that much... So much that after you've already hurt me, you still had to hurt me all over again by the things that you've said. I hate it that I'm having a hard time moving on... Because it was just a month or so, but for me it felt so real and so genuine.. When it was the opposite for you.
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