Never Falling Apart (Starbucks Entry #2)

I've known my bestfriend, Cel for more than two years now. We were in the same organization; a singing group that I joined in when I was about to enter my junior year in college. We didn't actually hit it off as friends, she was one of the older ones in the group (seniority in the organization! Not of age haha when she graduated she was the longest staying member of Innersoul ever haha!) and I was a new one so I bonded with the newer girls since we talk about the same stuff, even though I am classmates with Cel in 2 of my subjects that term I think. I don't actually know when or where did all these best friend thing started to happen but what I know is that those two girls I was close with left the group (Pam migrated to Australia, and Mara just suddenly wasn't attending rehearsals) and technically, we were the two oldest girl members. To make it short, we became the best of friends. Most of our time together as bestfriends were spent literally being together EVERYDAY, because aside from having the same organization, we were also classmates, we were both officers in our last year in college, and we even graduated together. When we're not together (during SOME of the weekends), we constantly text each other or call or anything. We're pretty much like the boyfriend of each other and people jokingly think that way too.

Eventually after graduating, she was the first one (between the two of us) to get a job at a very well known company. But even after starting to work, we'd communicate everyday through text, sometimes calls, but of course as months flew by she became busier. A lot more things were needed to be done, and to top it all off, sha had a new world. Yes, we still text everyday but of course texts are getting fewrer everyday. Don't get me wrong, I understand that. But you see, I'm scared. I'm leaving in a little over a month, and I'm scared! Scared that we'll fall apart, scared that I won't have her anymore when I'm gone, that we'll lose contact and all those things, and I KNOW i don't want that. I don't wanna lose my bestfriends; I don't wanna lose her. We may have a lot of differences in beliefs in general, but that wasn't ever a problem between us. In fact, I can't remember a single thing we really fought over with. We support each other. We love each other. She's my "girly girl" bestfriend; my shopping buddy,my cyber stalking partner (haha!), my duet partner, my manicure-pedicure,naicha loving twin. MY TWIN! MY "BOYFRIEND". :)

Luckily we spent time together yeaterday here at home, watching DVDs, and our 10th year concert, reminiscing about everything and everyone, laughing and all.. I realized, WE'RE NOT GONNA FALL APART AFTERALL. :)

Starbucks Entry #1

Actually supposedly dated August 29, 2009

Yesterday, I had the impulse to look for my 2009 Starbucks Planner because I needed to write a lot of stuff-- SCHEDULE FOR THE WHOLE MONTH OF SEPTEMBER for the recording of the Christmas Album that's gonna be released mid October, so to make the long story short, my schedule was going to be pretty tough so I needed to actually write down my schedule. So yea I found it. I was browsing through the pages (talk about memorable dates and such but let's not talk about it right now) and I realized I haven't written anything in the past months since May, meaning I've been really idle since May (well I remember going through some interviews!! But I wasn't able to write them). So, (before typing it up here), I am writing this entry on the empty pages of my Starbucks planner, and I think I'm gonna do this a lot more often just if I have an impulse to write anything.

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Finally after 3 weeks (4 days of going back and forth), I'm done with my medical examinations for employment!! And I'm FIT TO WORK! This is finally happening. I'm just so happy, thinking I'm one step closer to my job, my DREAM JOB!

So, my agency's assigned medical center is located in Intramuros so, in order that I get there, I have to travel through the road of Taft Avenue, Upon going home last Thursday, suddenly, I was hoping to see someone I know when the bus pass by La Salle, I was hoping like, one of the new Innersoul members, or a former classmate, or other orgmates. But never did I expect seeing that one person. I knew it was him because I saw another familiar face with him, and I knew they were friends. Uhmm... let's just say I was totally caught off guard, seeing him when I just don't expect to see him. It's just that... My heart skipped. I just terribly miss him... as my FRIEND. (or that's what I like to think) But no, I am over him. I just kinda hate him for what he's done AFTER.

Amidst the happiest day... You still have the power to make me grow weary seeing you. I wish we've ended on better terms, maybe I won't be like this anymore.

I Probably Fell In Love With My Best Friend. 2 More to go.

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

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Did you say it? ‘I love you. I don’t ever want to live without you. You changed my life.’ Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in ‘cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.

One Sweet Love

It's been a while since I last wrote here. I've been sort of busy with a lot of stuff especially fixing all my papers for my work. Gladly, last week, I have finished and submitted all my requirements to the agency. So far, so good. In a few weeks time, hopefully I'll be having my working visa already. :) YEY! I want to be optimistic about things. THIS IS MEANT TO BE. I EARNED THIS. THEREFORE, I WILL GET IT. :) Last Thursday I went to the local agency and submitted all the requirements that they need. I have also undergone medical exams (though I'm still not done, because we had to have this PreDeaprture Seminar and we had to leave earlier), which I will continue Wednesday (MY PLAN, so that I could meet up with my best friend and her sister and Innersoul as well.)

Speaking of INNERSOUL, well, the NEW INNERSOUL, I got to bond with them last Thursday and Frieday and all I can say is they're one happy BIG group. They're actually twice as big (in number) as we were when I first came in Innersoul, and they have very different personalities. The Innersoul that I was used to (that I "grew" up with) is different from the Innersoul now. Compared to them, we had different interests then. But still, they're really fun to be with and I'm glad I was able to bond with then and really be friends with them over the course of just 2 days, including the CAO Awards. (BTW, Congrats to De La Salle Innersoul, for winning the BEST DRESSED award!hahahahahaha!Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow, Innersoul will rock in style ;) ) I LOVE YOU MY NEW BABIES!

I also got to hang out with a few of my college friends before the CAO Awards and it's just really fun. I'll miss a lot of places, and a lot of people when I'm gone. Hopefully I'll really be able to visit once in a while.

It'll be less than two months 'til I go...

Condolences and More

First of all, I would like to offer my condolences not only to the family of the Former President Corazon Aquino, but to the whole Filipino nation, for OUR loss. To tell you honestly, I didn't really care much with the news at first, I'm thinking, you know, everyone of us will come to an end of our earthly life; it's inevitable. And I just regard her as just one of the famous figures in our country who died, like famous public figures who died recently, like, for example, the celebrity manager, Douglas Quijano. I even wondered why there is a need to declare August 5 (yesterday) a holiday in commemoration of her death (I was happy anyway), because I WASN'T BORN YET WHEN THE PEOPLE POWER REVOLUTION HAPPENED, moreso with the death of Benigno Aquino.

So, we spent the whole morning (actually until the afternoon), following the Cory-related events, starting from the Necrological Mass (the singers, I can say, were the best! Everything was soooo solemn and songs sent "shivers down my spine" hahahaha), up until the very looooooong travel from the Manila Cathedral to Manila Memorial (I wasn't able to finish because I had Godly errands that night =p). Particularly, during the Homily, where all the good deeds and traits of Cory were mentioned did I realize how much of a great person she is, how big her part in the "freedom" of our country from the dictatorship of President Marcos for more than a decade. Albeit the fact that she was only a housewife, and only knew then how to lead the household and her kids living a simple life, she gave up all of that to fight for a long-suffering country and succeeded. To make the long story short, she's a LEGEND. With her death, not only did we lose a former President, but we also lost a mother and a friend.













On another note (and a very different one), I'm very excited for next week's Revealed Unlimited Service. Well but of course, I'm always excited but this one's diffrent because I'm assigned to sing contemporary songs in the lobby where people are waiting for the service to begin. :) I'm just so excited. I would want to share my repertoire for next week (Jill helped me with this, thanks pwet :) ), but I want it to be a surprise. So, if you wanna watch me and LEARN THE WORD OF GOD afterwards, join us, at #2 Don Manolo Avenue, Alabang Hills, Muntinlupa this Wednesday August 13, 2009, 7:00 (if you want to watch me haha), 7:30 (is the main service). It's only 'til 9:00PM, you won't even realize it's done because it's so much fun!Revealed is open to youth and young adults ages 16 and up. :) See you there!

..And August Begins.

In a little over two months, I'll be leaving the Philippines, so in the next days or so, maybe I'll be reminiscing about whatever it is that I could think of.

THE END. HAHA! I can't write right now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TITA EVELYN! :D