The Sun's Gonna Shine After All. :)

A week has passed since my dreaded day-- COURSE CARD DAY.

Yeah, gladly, i passed my FINQUAM..And though at first I was unhappy, I'll choose not to think about it because the good thing is, I didn't fail any subject, and I won't be delayed!

Not, I'm busy with my OJT (I'm actually at work now, but I've got nothing to do yet, so gladly blogger isn't blocked here), my rehearsals for the freshmen orientation (but I lost my voice maybe because of fatigue, I'm still looking for it! hahahaha), and.. well there it is. Those things keep me really busy and always, always out of our house hahahaha.

'Til my next blog.. I'm not really in the mood to write, but I just feel like I need to because it's been a while since I last posted something here. :) I have pictures at my multiply though :)

Time Check

It's 7:00 AM already, I'm done with my hell-ish paper around 5:30 but I'm still awake.. i started doing the other paper but I think I'm not doing it right so I'll wait for my groupmate to answer my query regarding the paper... Anyway, imma study first... :)

Dozing off.

TIME CHECK: 4:00 AM

In an hour and a half, I'm officially 24 hours awake.

Funny how I've been contemplating on the reason why i sleep too much this past few days, doing nothing when I go home but just watch TV, do a little school work and sleep.. Usually, when I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock [my phone], I'll be begging for every "last five minutes.. last five minutes.." until I spent another 30 minutes sleeping.. Then when I'm travelling to school, I automatically sleep and wake up when I'm really really near school.

Now I know the answer. Because I won't be sleeping much for the next few days. IT'S FINALS WEEK. and gosh it has been one heck of a week! Although I'm happy about my past weekend getaway, I kinda am blaming it for my lack of time now. Now I'm trying to finish 3 papers [I actually scheduled it THURSDAY NIGHT, but now, it's FRIDAY MORNING so I'm kinda lagging behind :)].. But I'm still finishing this first one! Me and my groupmates never knew this paper would be one heck of a problem. Let me see.... Out of 6 people working on this project, only two are left, me and Wong! Wow. We're kinda lost now, but we still have to find the courage to finish this paper.

After this, I think I should do my other paper first, take a nap, then start to study perhaps.. BUT STILL. The paper that I've been ranting and crying about still isn't finished. Maybe because of the reason that I do not know how to actually finish it. And I feel like I'm alone even if I'm not because I have a groupmate.. I'm afraid to give him the responsibility although I know I can't handle it on my own...

Sh*t. Ang gulo nanaman ng post ko. Sorry. Sorry talaga. You guys shouldn't have bothered reading this. Pasensya na kung may mga wrong grammar or something. epekto ng kasabawan... or baka ganyan lang talaga ako.

I WANT THIS TO END. :( REALLY REALLY WANT TO...

Please.

For hours now, I've been pulling myself up to do my paper-- a make or break way to pass my hardest finance major ever. But unfortunately, my "pulling" isn't as hard as it should be. for some reason I still can't do it.. And I'm getting frustrated because I know I really need this, yet I don't have the strength to do it.. :( I wanna cry now... God please, please help me. :(

Realize

Here's the lyrics of the song from Colbie Calliat, Realize, for my best-est friend. :) para sa atin 'to..I hope they realize that in time. :)

Take time to realize

That your warmth is

Crashing down on in
Take time to realize

That I am on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize

Oh oh, I'm on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you

Take time to realize

This all could pass you by

Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize

What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

If we missed out on each other, but

It's not the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it too

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way

It could be the same for you

If you just realize
What I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And we'll never find another

Just realize

What I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

Just realize

What I just realized

If you just realize

What I just realized..

Someday, I know, someone will realize your worth--and love you wholeheartedly. It may, or may not be him, but it will definitely come. :) Someone out there will see what a wonderful person you are-- how simple, beautiful, intelligent, compassionate, trustworthy, strong, responsible...oh, the list is enless. But the bottomline is, you are an amazing person, and we see that in you, I see that in you.. definitely someone will.

Remember what I told you last night [or around 1AM? hahahaha], you are beautiful, and I'm saying this not because I am your friend but simply because you are. :) I love you and I'll always be here for you, most especially if you want to "reverse roles". :) you are one of the most remarkable people I've met in my life and you know that I'll forever treasure our friendship. You have been in my life for quite a long time now and I hope you'd still be in it even after what? a hundred years? :) basta. Thank you for making me feel that I'm not alone. For constantly being there for me, whenever. I love you dearie. *hug*

P.S. I know I not as good as you are when it comes to writing, but, I hope you get what I mean. :)

P.P.S. Nahirapan ako maghanap ng picture natin together. we should have one album na tayo lang dalawa. hahahaha. :) I love you girl! :)

Get Lucky, Get Blessed, Get Love.

I was browsing through my friends at friendster when I saw the homepage of this girl named Suzanne. I remember her from my freshman year at Bloomfield. We're not really close... actually not close at all, that's why I never heard about any news when I left Bloomfield to transfer to Seton, moreso when we all graduated highschool and started college.

Now I see her, with this guy, in the US! Her status says "Married" but I don't think they are though. But still, the idea of being with the person she loves, in a differenct country and all that.. Makes me want to think that indeed, some people get lucky in love.

Even just seeing Liana and Keng super in love.. Looking perfect for each other, Having a "perfect" relationship [not perfect as in no problems and obstacles and such, but you know, they manage to survive through it all]... Makes me want to think that some people are indeed blessed in love.

I don't know, even if I say that I'm not believing in that happy ending anymore, finding that right guy for me anymore... At the back of my mind.. I'm still HOPING my Mr. Right would come soon and take me and make everything all right... :)

The Pressure's Up!

I know, maybe you'll think my reaction's a bit...late, na ngayon ko lang narealize na kailangan na pala ako mag-panic.

With barely 2 weeks before the finals, a week before some deadlines, I think I'm gonna be spending days and days of sleepless nights, doing papers in two subjects.. FINQUAM, and BUSIPOL. Okay, konti lang yan compared to the other people who has 6 subjects and 6 papers all at the same time. I'm just glad, underload na ako ngayon, I'll only be taking 12 units until I finish school, probably because I already took some floating subjects when I was fixing my shifting papers.

But hello?! FINQUAM is hard. At least for me. Well, I can't concentrate of reading those articles and getting to finish it to start making summaries and finally the synthesis. Me and my partner still have 3 articles to go plus the synthesis nga. I just hope I'll be able to find the ULTIMATE INSPIRATION [Okay, let me clear this, it doesn't have to be SOMEONE, just, some.. whatever that could be a source of joy and everything. hahaha I'm so weird.].

I don't have class today because the school cancelled the afternoon and evening classes so I'll be spending the next few days of Holy Week here at home, bumming.. AND DOING MY PAPERS!

The term is about to end! And I'm about to undergo my OJT... I honestly don't know what to expect. I think I'll be working at the Department of Finance or the BSP, which is good because I'll be having a busy time juggling my OJT duties and rehearsals and performances at school for the upcoming LPEP again, and it's better that it's just near school! New Freshmen again! I'm excited although I havent't heard the song that we're gonna sing..

Oooops! Before the OJT I'll ba having a Leadership Training and Teambuilding Seminar [2 days at school and an overnight in I don't know where yet] in preparation for being an Executive Board in Innersoul. I'm actually excited!

Nakikini-kinita ko na na I won't have time for a vacation talaga.. On my last summer vacation ng college.

I'll just have to maximize the time that I'm gonna have, if ever there will be.